....Things....

There has been a lot of, let's face it, "childish actions" and "childish language" that has been said over the past few months. And what I cannot comprehend is, how come when a person is being irrational or saying something that should not be said, they become so angry to the point that they will literally "disown" family members when they are called out on their actions. I need to state at this point, that this blog is not directed to anyone in particular, it is just an observation I have seen my ENTIRE life. Family will always be there for you, so they should stick together always! No matter what is said or done. We should forget what has been said and move on.

I know that I am only 23 years of age and I have a lot of learning to do about life. But what I do know is that I am 23 years of age and not 16. This means that my actions and words should be that of a 23 year old and not a teenager, and more importantly, a Christian. I recently changed my friend list on facebook for many many reasons. The first was because I was spending too much time on Facebook, and not on my spiritual life. I got so wrapped up in this recent "drama”, which I lost sight of what I am supposed to be doing. The second reason I changed the friend list, is because I realized that I only accepted them to see what they were doing in their life. Facebook in my opinion has become a way to contact friends and family in a quicker way. So, when I was going through my list I removed those that I haven't talked to in a long time. I figured that if they were truly interested in what was going on in my life, they would contact me. I know this sounds bad on so many levels, but life is not about Facebook, Twitter, Blogging (ironic I know right?), Myspace or any other form of electronic device. I find it quite comical that people will use these internet forms of communication for dissing people. Dissing people through others profiles. Life is about learning about God's love and living to His will. Life is not like a sentence that you read once and say, "I GET IT!” it is more like a poem that you can read over and over again and die not knowing the real meaning of the poem. You may never know the real meaning of the poem, but you know more about the poem when you die than when you started reading the poem. Just like God's Word. We will never know everything there is to know about His Word, but when we die and meet him we will know more than we did when we started.

Family is very important to me, and it has crushed my heart to know that there are people out there that would disown their own flesh and blood. I have had my share of heartaches through the years. I was taken away from my family when I was 18 months old and I was adopted at the age of 4. Even though I consider myself very lucky because I have always known my biological family, we have had our share of hard times and rough patches. There has been many punches thrown, words tossed about and even periods of long silence; but we overcame that and are much better now. We realize that we are not going to always see eye to eye on things, but what we have realized is that we have to understand where the other person is coming from. Understand is a big word, but once a person grasps the concept of this word, issues and disagreements can be resolved in a quick manner.

So I apologize for my actions and words that may have rubbed someone the wrong way. But what I do not apologize is for pointing out someone’s words and actions that have damaged others’ self-esteem. I am a big person about change, and how people can change. So I feel that if someone is doing something that is hurting other people or even hurting yourself, that person should be made aware of it. That person then has the chance to change, because he or she may not know they are hurting people. If you are the person who is getting told that your actions and words are being hurtful, do not over react to the point you make a fool out of yourself. The person telling you cares enough about you to inform you of the harsh words. I know it hurts, but your words have hurt other people.

This is a long road of life of which I have fallen off so many times before now. But I have never EVER given up! Neither should you.


So my ranting is over… for now. Life is too short to be anything but happy. So Laugh, Smile, and BE THANKFUL for the time we are given! We are not deserving of this time! Thank you God! You are grateful and merciful!

~~Angel